God loves you

Lots of things came thru my mind today. Been in holiday mood for a month now is not a good thing, I guess. I am not that free actually. I have sewing/drawing class twice a week. I have plenty of books to be read. I have a lot of stuffs to be sorted out. Movies to be watched. Puppy to be taken care for. Meal and cake recipes to be experiment with.. lol, But why do I still feel so not-productive?

Once said, it's a matter of your mind. Whether you want to feel happy or sad.
It is fully true. We all women act with our feeling. That's a good thing indeed, yet that's not how you suppose to see the world with :)

This morning I realized that some women (and men) put their selves to be the center of everything. Career, hobby, money is what matter most. Some others put their loves one to be the center of their world (ex.boyfriend, husband, err children maybe?). This isn't a bad thing, but what if at one time this 'world', accidentally or not, failed your expectation? What if your husband left you, your children disappoint you, your boyfriend ignore you? Then your world might falling apart, you don't have any strength or spirit to move on, everything seems so boring, etc etc.
That is why I got to this point.. God has to be the center of your world.
He never ever fails you. He loves you. Very much.
People disappoint you sometimes, it's normal. But God does not.
People cheat on you. God won't. Cos He is the source of Love ;)


I Corinthians 13: 4-7 (NKJV)
⁴ Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; ⁵ does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; ⁶ does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; ⁷ bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

The Message version

^3-7If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love.

   Love never gives up.
   Love cares more for others than for self.
   Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
   Love doesn't strut,
   Doesn't have a swelled head,
   Doesn't force itself on others,
   Isn't always "me first,"
   Doesn't fly off the handle,
   Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
   Doesn't revel when others grovel,
   Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
   Puts up with anything,
   Trusts God always,
   Always looks for the best,
   Never looks back,
   But keeps going to the end.


Why do you so in need of people's love and attention when God gives you more than that?

GUY

I am writing this in between of me doing my offering-challenge note for IF service. Oh well.. I know this is not related to any bible verse that I prepared, but I actually want to write this since long time ago :)

Let's keep this simple and short. For me, being twenty is more than just a number. There are such a huge responsibilities that I need to carry (No offense to those older than me, I know ur burdens are even more :P ), and to be honest I feel so depressed now with the things going on :( *dun want to talk about it*, yet I am so excited about how my life and future would be!

And get to the point, let's talk something fun hahaha!

(please pardon the pics LOL)

---Criteria of a guy I would LOVE to MARRY *twink twink*---

1. My CG leader once asked me this. For me the most important thing is that a guy should possess a leadership skill. Okay I knoe this is not somekind of a scout thingy LOL but He should be able to bring me UP, draw me closer to God and not drag me away from HIM, teach me to be more patient, change the bad side of me, and together with me bearing the fruits of Spirit. Above it all? He must have a heart for God, and this is so IMPORTANT. full stop

2. Have a commitment. When all the good things disappear in a marriage (I hope not), only the commitment that you can hold and make you stand still.

3. The rest is actually subjective. I could even listed it till hundreds if you're so curious LOL, but I don't have much time to do it now, so yeah... (to be continued)

Most importantly I think is about how a guy treats a woman. You can see the difference if your attitudes towards a woman is changed. hehehe =)

start from helping her carry her heavy bags, opening the door for her, or.. I don't know, some simple things will do. I don't want you to feel that I am torturing you guys, so yeah.. feel free to disagree :)

*continuing my work*

Perfectly Imperfect

Happy sundaaayyy :)

It was really nice to be back my second home; worshiping God in City Harvest KL and meeting my second family in Indonesian Fellowship.
Such a blessing to know all of them, grow and yet to be fruitful together in the house of God.
anyway, I wud like to share three things that I learned today.

1. We shud be thankful, grateful enough, for receiving mercy and bless from God, even when we don't deserve it.

2. We shud not only RECEIVE, yet we also need to GIVE as an action of LOVE.

3. We are imperfect, but God makes us perfect in His eyes.
We all might have a different timing to encounter God and His presence. We are amazed by how God bless our friends, families, others. But when is exactly our turn? You may have this question in your mind. But let me tell you something. We all have a different timing. It is not your faults. It is God's timing, and He makes everything perfect at the right time, not too soon and not too late.
For me, listening to other people's testimonies is burned me up, means I am encouraged to do more things with God, walks with Him, talk to Him. Thanks to such a wonderful testimonies today in IF, I know that my time is coming soon. Not to soon yet not too late. I just need to reflect on myself, whether what I do right now pleasing God, as well as maximise my skill and capacity. :)

And one more thing.. I believe all of us are such a beauty in God's eyes.
You might not pretty, but you are sweet (like me? LOL) *sorry for the too much self-confidence*
You might not sweet, but you look attractive.
You might not smart, but you are kind.

Sometimes I do feel much discouraged seeing A LOT of pretty sexy attractive soft hearted girls outside, I DO! hahaha
But I also do believe that God is not unfair for not giving me any good things in me. We are just not well-trained enough to know our own capability, strength, and beauty!

Time heals and opens everything! Just wait and learn!

Good niteeee :)

Shortest Trip: Singapore

Hello again, from me.

It has been like, years, I didn't post anything and get busy with my life. hahah

Just want to share how challenging my last trip to Singapore, yet I was so blessed by those people around me..
So the story starts when I was planning to visit my bestie in SG for her graduation as well as Fashion Show of her collection.
I was so excited about this because.. I just love holiday :D

There were a lot of new things happened in this two days one nite trip that is really.. amazing.
1. I stayed in budget hotel-Balestier for S$179/night, 4x4m room (just forget about how CHEAP it was, high-season rate), while I only brought S$200 that time. I almost cried of lack of $$, trying to call my mom and anyone who can help me. Thank God I had my ATM card. lol
2. I almost missed my flight (twice). Too much enjoying the airport, I guessed.
3. My first time using Tiger Airways, the service is as good as Airasia. Though the stewards are a lot more..erm handsome. hahaha :P
4. God is indeed good. I realized I didn't spend any penny for breakfast, lunch, or dinner. interesting,huh?
5. My first time ever, I rarely used MRT or buses, instead I used taxi for most of my journey (shorten time).
6. Also my first time ever, check-in hotel by myself, alone. That feeling was just..different. ahaha
7. Finger food in Raffles Design SG's grad (Mandarin Hotel) was much much better compare to Raffles KL (J.W. M*rriot). My free dinner at that time lol
8. I went all the way from Orchard to Marina Bay just to eat supper (and meeting families of course), some kind of Tuna Salad. Price: S$25. Taste: no need to ask. Cost: nothing
9. Best breakfast ever!! TWG Tea is the best! Shud try another set menus next time :) Thanks to Debbie Kamil who treated me for the brunch :D
10. Rather odd to say this, but I missed Ringgit MY. It feels so..good, to be able to spend little while you can get more (compare to SG) lol

conclusion: Singapore indeed has great food, entertainment, hotels, environment, that you will never get bored with.
*terms and conditions apply*

Raffles SG Graduation 2011 

Debbie's artwork

cute Sam! 

Final marketing project

designer and marketer ;)

bye-bye 4.1, welcome 5.1

first of all, sebenernya bingung mau nulis apa. padahal tadi siang udah kepikiran mau nulis blog. hhmm.. oo yah, sebenernya gua gak expect temen2 yang gua kenal baca blog gua, soalnya malu juga.. HAHAHAHA. tapi makasih yah kalo ternyata kalian yang kenal pada baca. jadi malu..ahahaha

kalopun ada yang accidentally ngebuka blog gua, yah makasih juga deh. moga2 dapet sesuatu dari apa yang gua tulis, jd gak sia2 amat dah..haha

kata temen gua layoutnya rame banget yah?ahahaha. maklum aja soalnya kan ini blog cewe, trus bukan sembarang cewe, cewe banget. makasih masukannya.. ntar lah diganti kalo nemu yang bagus. trus juga temen gua yang laen, gak nyangka baca blog gua. jadi malu (lagi), soalnya dia dah lebih dulu berkecimpung di dunia blog-blog an ini.hahaha

btw, kemaren hari terakhir exam di 4.1 !!

seneng banget, secara gua belajar gak henti2 cape banget, tapi akhirnya seneng juga ujiannya selesai, and gua gak nyesel walopun ada soal yang gak bisa dijawab, tapi banyak bisanya. At least I tried my best. Thank God! :)

Gak kerasa ih udah kuliah setaon di malay, banyak banget unpredictable moments happened in my life. Walopun kadang nyesel kenapa gua bisa sampe 'tersangkut' di negara Twin Tower ini, tapi everything must be happened for a reason. Apalagi gua yakin banget Tuhan yang ngatur perjalanan hidup gua sekarang (kotbah lagi gua),hahaha.. Dari daftar HI Unpar, pindah ke London School, mikir mau ke China, UPH, Tarumanegara, sampe mau kawin pun uda gua pertimbangin..tapi akhirnya terdamparlah gua disini, di negeri jiran tercinta.

Tapi sekarang pun gua sebenernya suka mikir2 lagi, rasanya gak mau kuliah disini :( tapi kalo gak disini, kemana lagi donk?? Kalo aja tau diploma di Spore ato Ausy cuma setaon, pasti gua kesana..haha. Salah info neh.. :( agak menyesal, tapi mau gimana lagi, yah jalani aja deh..

OO iyaahh.. seneng banget kemaren 16 September tuh Malaysian Day. (lohhh??) maksudnya My Day juga. Gua kira ultah gua disini bakalan suram durjam gak ada yang ngerayain, ditambah besoknya ada exam, tapi ternyata seneng juga, dikasih surprise (sebenernya gua dah nyangka) sama housemates, trus makan bareng sama my best best friends here, and dikasih surprise pula sama CG members.. I LOVE them ALL.. :) :)

ooheeh sekalian mau klarifikasi juga ah..

Gua ngerasa image gua jadi jelek gini sama temen2 CG secara gua ceritanya 'kepergok' lagi pegi nonton sementara mereka ngajak cellgroup. HAHAHA

tapi gua bakal klarifikasi real storynya sekarang...

jadi gini..seminggu sebelum ultah gua, sebenernya gua udah rencana mau menghabiskan 16 september di kamar tercinta buat spenuhnya belajar. tapiii kebetulan gua udah cape banget blj, trus juga krn itu hari ultah gua, gua pikir pengen seneng2 dikit ahh. jadi gua memutuskan ngajak temen gua lunch sushi bareng di KLCC. karna temen gua lama kasih keputusan, gua ajak deh temen gua yang laen. Temen yg satu ini mau, trus minta gua temenin dia beli laptop.. Oke deh gua temenin. Jadi pergilah kami ke KLCC buat makan di Sushi King trus beli laptop. Trus temen pertama pun akhirnya confirm, dan menyusul kami ke KLCC. (koq jd aneh gini yah bahasanya? biarlah.. yg penting ngerti kan?? lanjut...) Ternyata, temen gua ini beli bday cake doonnkk.. Gua beneran gak nyangka, soalnya gua cuma pengen makan sushi doank, enek banget makan korea sampe beneran muntah kmrn2 (HAHA), cuma pengen lunch yg high class dikit lah pas ultah gua,, eh dia beli cake, yah gmn gua gak seneng.. Temen yg satu lagi pun, jauh2 dateng dari rumahnya bawa kado cuma buat lunch doank sama gua.

Gara2 itu lah, gua memutuskan buat ajak mereka jalan2 bentar di KLCC. Gak lucu kan abis lunch bareng, mereka udah do effort buat gua, trus udah gitu langsung pulang? bener gaa?? Yaudah loh gua ajak nonton bioskop. Dua jam doank kann.. Eh secara tidak sengaja, temen CG gua dateng ke KL jauh2 dari Sunway cumabuat ngasih surprise. Rencananya sih mereka mau ngejutin gua pas gua lagi belajar di rumah. Tapi ketauan deh gua lagi KLCC nonton Resident Evil,hahaha.. Sehari sebelumnya mereka ajak gua ke cellgroup, tapi gua nolak karna alesan besoknya exam. (emank bener lahh). lagian jauh juga perjalanan ke komsel PP 4 jam.

Truuss akhirnya ketemu lah gua sama temen2 CG di KLCC. Ngerasa gak enak sekaligus terharu, gua ketemu mereka dengan bday cake yang uda ancur karna perjalanan 3 jam dr Sunway ke KL. (Thanks a lot Guysss :)) tapi gua jadi kaya disalahin gitu, katanya mau exam besok, tapi malah pegi nonton and nolak CG.

Salah ngga sih gua sebenernya? Awal2 gua pikir gua emank salah, tapi lama2 kaya emank kejadiannya kebetulan gitu trus gua gak sengaja juga ajak mereka nonton, trus jalan2 bentar, blablabla.. Lagian, gak salah juga kan kalo gua mau enjoy my big day?

Duh bingung juga ahh.. Intinya sih, gua seneng banget hari itu, sekaligus ngerasa gak enak juga ama yang laen..hahaha

tapi seneng banget lah ultah taon ini.. udah 19 taon juga.. setaon lagi nih jadi teenager. And I will make sure I'm goin to enjoy this last year as a teenager and my last year in Malaysia! yoohhoooo :D

Besok balik indo, ketemu papa mama cici dede ema encim ncek ngku ngkim iih temen teman timin kawan sodara sodari pembantu tercintaahhh.. senangnyaaa..

GOssip Girl season 4 and Vampire Diaries season 2 juga uda release.. huhuuyy

Thanks God for everythingg! :)

I LOVE S

It's pretty long time ago since my last post, and now it's September ady~ Yea, it's September dear.. The month that i've been waiting for, besides December (Christmas) and February (Chinese New Year)~lol

why i love this month?

The only main reason is because i have my birthday on it! :D

Fyi, i had a really amazing September last year, when everything was going so smooth and i really enjoyed that time; one month before i moved to KL. I miss that time so bad :(

However, it doesn't really matter anymore coz i enjoy my life now. Compare to who I was last year, i feel stronger, wiser, maturer, closer to God. Actually last time i felt that i was wrong to choose to move here, i hated the ppl here, i didn't have much easy time here, but then i realized that EVERYTHING HAPPENED FOR A REASON.

I believe that God placed me here to shape me, destroy my bad character and build the good one inside. I am so blessed that i have a happy church, a great cg, wonderful friends. :)

But do you think i live my life happily without any thoughts or problems after that?

of course Nope. Sometimes i feel really bad without any reason, or feel depressed just because small problem, etc etc. It's a common thing. But let me tell you something. Whatever happens in your life, just believe that it happens for a reason. God has uniquely created you, and even when you still can't figure out who you are goin to be, just believe in Him.

I want to thank God for this month! this special month; coz i found lots of new things to do :D

1. I have my own small business :D even sometimes i feel it's not goin to work well but JUST DO IT! haha

2. My friend offered me a job, and it's kinda interesting and offer quite huge amount of moneyy. I ady applied for it and now still waiting for any reply from them. Hope hope hope they will accept me and i will be so extremely happy if they accept me! Guess what job it is? kekekeke

3. I'm interested to learn guitar and violin. It's good, isn't it?

4. I'm also thinking to buy a small sewing machine and create my own clothes. I mean, why not? Right?? :D

5. My dad has ady gave me "Birthday Gift" so Happy :) :)

Can't wait to see how God will surprise me each day wif new thing, new lesson, new blessing. Feel it, do it, and learn from it.

*PS : Please do pray for me and my exam!! :S

xoxo,

I LOVE S(eptember)

Why do people like to put off doing something?

17.08.10 Independence Day of Indonesia

MERDEKAAAA!! :D

seneng banget yah kita bisa hidup di jaman modern kaya sekarang ini..

ngga kebayang kalo gua hidup di jaman dulu.. ngga ada si keren blackberry, ngga ada si canggih macbook.. TV pun cuma orang mapan aja yang punya..

udah gitu pembantu susah dicari.. tiap hari harus bantu orangtua cari duit, belum tentu boleh sekolah..

Thanks God gua lahir di tahun 1991.. :)

Thanks God juga 65 tahun sudah Indonesia merdeka.. Meskipun kita masih dijajah oleh hal-hal yang kasat mata.. :(

BTW, mati lampu doonnkk di rumah..

alasannya : belum bayar listrik

padahal gua udah kasih tuh duit listrik ke hosmet dari awal bulan ini, and sekarang listriknya diputusin karena belum bayar.. ZZZ

satu pertanyaan gua adalah :

WHY do people like to put off doing something?

contohnya aja nyicil belajar ato mandi ato disuruh orangtua ato kejadian hari ini yang bikin gua ngga bisa ngapa2in (padahal udah rencana mau seharian nonton korea) lol

alasannya banyak banget! entar aja deh, belum waktunya, males, gak sempet, cape, masih ada lain waktu, and many more.

bingung dehh... kalo emang ada kesempatan, kenapa ngga sih? apa ruginya coba ngelakuin sesuatu sebelum tenggat waktunya and ngga last minute??

hhmm..masalahnya kalo belajar, oke deh kadang2 kita emank males disuruh nyicil.. itu sih maklum.. tapi kalo saran gua, kenapa ngga belajar nyicil?? apa ruginya??

Kalo gua sih (bukannya sombong,wkwkwkw) kalo udah mau exam, gua usahain nyicil belajarnya.. Rajin banget?? Mungkinn.. :) tapi bukan itu masalahnya.. gua sih takut aja kalo belajar last minute, ngga keburu semua bahan and malah stress sendiri karena kepikiran bahan yang banyak banget..

selain itu.. temen gua pernah ngasih quote kayak gini :

3 sentences of getting success :

-know more than others

-work/study more than others

-expect less than others

gua sih mikirnya gini.. di dunia ini orang2 punya kemampuan yang beda2.. ada yang cerdas, ada yang pinter, ada yang sedikit lemot, dan ada yang butuh perhatian extra.. masalahnya di kelompok manakah kamu di dunia ini??

gua sih mikir jeleknya aja.. kalo ternyata banyak banget orang yang jauh lebih cerdas dari gua, gimana donk? gimana gua mau bertahan hidup? gimana gua mau cari makan?? kawin ama datuk ato anak raja?? hahahaha

Intinya.. anggep aja kita dikategori pas2an, it means kita harus work/study more than others. Kalo orang pinter belajar rumus fisika sekali aja cukup, berarti kita harus belajar 3 kali biar kemampuan kita SAMA kayak dia. Itu artinya juga, kita harus belajar 7 atau 10 kali lebih sering biar kemampuan kita MELEBIHI kemampuan 'si pintar' itu.

Am i right? :)

Oh yaa.. selain itu juga, selama satu tahun terakhir ini gua belajar banyak banget tentang pengalaman hidup.. *Baru 18 mau ke 19 tahun aja udah sok* hahaha

I am not sure whether you agree with me or not, but this life teaches me to expect less from others. I do not expect others to do a favor for me anymore, I do not expect others to understand my feelings, I do not expect others to 'sacrifice' for me. Why? I just think that it's nonsense. The only one that can sacrifice for us is our Lord. :)

My mom once taught me not to depend on other people. Sometimes, we have to stand with our own feet without any others' help. WE HAVE TO. Because i don't think people can always help us if we get into troubles. They do have problems. So the only person that can help you whenever you need is Jesus :)

However, even when I said that I do not expect others to understand my feelings or cares of me, I DO EXPECT. coz I am still human. But I just don't want this feeling make me out of control and force others to care of me and understand my feeling; if they are not, i will be so mad and angry and upset, and act like crazy.

NO. I am not that kind of person. That's why i want to keep my expectation under control :D

So, please think twice if u are trying to put off doing something..

sometimes? acceptable.. but always?? it's BIG NO.

Think about your future, then you will realize how precious time is :)

Last thing, if I think deeply about the positive thing for not having electricity today, i got some advantages also :

1. I cleaned my house. MY SELF. *proudly to say* the very very dirty kitchen, the messy living room, and my own room. Now it's clean and comfortable :D

2. I went swimming. So happy coz since a month ago I didn't go swimming, and so happy to see the pool like a small little child :D Now I feel slim. LOL

It is now 9 pm, I don't know what to do with the rest of the time. Impossible if i sleep at this hour, and wake up in the early morning, find out that the electricity is still being cut down. :(

My macbook's battre is half already so i need to keep it or else i have to go to someone's house and do online there. Pray for me, soon the electricity will be back. :)

XOXO,

MERDEKA !